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5月8日 crazy, crazy 24!I have to say that TV lately has been making me crazy. Whoever decided that 24 should start in January instead of September so that it can run every week without interuption is a freaking genius!!! But....the tension is killing me! Every week, things get crazier. Come on, the president killing people!! Where do they come up with this stuff? Jack Bauer is the coolest. Hehe, and the evil president is thwarted again!
LOST is another show that is trying to give me a heart attack. Micheal shoots Ana-Lucia!!?? Does anyone else think that is crazy? Has he been brainwashed? Drugged? Are they holding Walt? He looked so weird when he did it. Creepy shit.
The Gilmores are heading for a crossroads and I don't know where everyone will end up. I don't care what others on the net say, I have always liked Logan, and I always thought Dean was a douche. His jealous shit would have made me dump him a thousand times. I have been in love with Luke Danes forever, but lately, he's been a complete ass and he's about to lose Lorelai if he's not careful. I nearly cried when Emily showed Lorelai the house she had picked out as a wedding gift. Emily finally gets it right. 4月23日 we'll just call it random thoughts, cuz' it's HI lariousyep. back to this again. A consistant thought is apparently just too much for me.
Sometimes I really hate being a girl. Seriously, having boobs is pretty entertaining, but being at the complete mercy of your hormones sucks. There are times when I'll say something only to immediately think, "Shit! Did that just come out of my mouth?!" It's like I lose the ability to think before I speak. Most of the time it's off the wall, oddball stuff, but accasionally I'm just really mean. Okay, apparently, I can have a complete thought. It's a freaking miracle. Wait, I'm not done. That doesn't even begin to cover the crying for no reason what-so-ever part. I'm just sobbing and and saying, "Damnit, why am I crying?!" This is why I sequester myself. Not so that I won't subject my moods on innocent bystanders, I don't care about them, it's just embarrassing! lol
I've got to stop eating at dennys all the time, I'm going to start gaining wieght again. The only real reason it's a problem is because since I'm in an actual restaurant, I actually remember to eat and it's usually late at night ppplllbb!!! That's what I have to say about that. I am so weird.
blah, blah, blah, lady parts, blah, blah, blah, wet with decent happiness.......just a little soemthing to break up the monotony.
I think I'm going to tell my sister that I got Joe's name tattooed on my ass just to freak her out. Hehe. She'll prolly tell that it will only stretch out when I have kids. The woman has kids on the brain and it's really starting to get on my nerves.
I was listening to my mp3 player while I was writing this last night at dennys to a song by Veruca Salt. (ten points if you know where the name comes from, minus five for spelling errors!) Anyway, I was trying to think of another truly good girl group and I'm coming up empty. Any help? Anyone?
4月14日 just checking inahhh! I was doing so well for a while there, writing every few days. I have been experiencing a drought, not of things to talk about, but acceptable things to talk about. My friends are getting tired of hearing about every little instance of happiness that I have experienced in the last few weeks, but I don't really like talking about specific dating tidbits with the internet community. Since the beginning of March I have been seeing a guy that I met at dennys and things are going VERY well. I'm smitten, it's sort of embarrassing. I haven't felt like this in years, probably since high school, and even then it wasn't the same, because it was something completely new to my experience. This time I have a little more past to compare it to.
The thing is, he's just as smitten as I am. That's great, but then I worry about stupid stuff like the first time he sees me pissed off and throwing a fit, or sick and whining about it, or the first time I get sad and out of sorts and spend money that I don't really have cuz it makes me feel better. I'm not a nut case or anything but I'm hardly perfect. Geez not even close. Ah well, I guess it's all part of the dating game, it's just not something that has come up in quite a while. 3月23日 Random thoughts at dennysIt's freaky to realize that ice can literally bring powerlines within your reach and nearly topple trees. I overhear the strangest conversations after hours at dennys, most I wish I hadn't. Math seriously stresses me out. I need to call my mom and I think I may have given away my secret to mom and auntie ro on sunday. My cousin declared at dinner that he would like to run for mayor of my hometown. I'm not entirely sure if he was kidding. My mom commented that he certainly has the BS down pat. She really shouldn't wear those pants, I seriously doubt that anyone is interested in seeing the back of her thighs. ick and gross. I hate waiting for someone, maybe that's why I'm always late, it's at least a good excuse anyway. What I wouldn't give for a stretch of sunny beach, a bikini, and a mai tai right now. Have I mentioned that I hate FUCKING WINTER!!!??? How often do you think about all the stupid people stealing your precious air? Not nearly enough, I bet. 3月22日 I just realized....that I have only seen the guy I am dating at night. I have yet to see him in the daylight. Is that weird? I'm pretty sure he's not a vampire. 3月13日 so I met a boyI was wearing this dress. It's not really very special, but there must be magic in it because every time I wear it, I get hit on.
I was sitting in Dennys with my friend Sarah and I was wearing the dress and I apparently caught the eye of one of the Dennys regulars, cuz he asked Dawn, our waitress, to find out if I was single. I don't know what is going on but Dawn pulls Sarah aside and starts asking her questions and they are both looking at me.
So, his friends give him a nudge and Sarah and Dawn smile encouragingly and he comes over to our table to talk to me. Turns out we have some things in common and he seems really nice as we talk about art and movies, so when he asks for my number and to meet him and friends at a local bar I say yes.
He still looks at me like he can't figure out what I see in him and I am falling under his silly charm. His friends like me and have just sort of included me in the group as well as my own friends. I like them, too. Everything is going well and I'm trying not to look forward too much, I just want to enjoy it. 2月26日 I am so sleepy....It has been a long day. I went last night (or this morning, at 1:30AM) to an impromptu keg party in Edwardsville with my friend, Sarah. We were invited by the guy she is interested in, so we would finally meet. ( I had spoken to him on the phone a couple of times, but this was our first meeting face to face.) I really hate beer, and it was too late to buy any alcohol in stores, so we went sober. Have you ever been the only sober person in a room full of drunk people? In my experience, it can go one of two ways. Either it's awful, you feel like the only one not getting the jokes, the only one not having fun, or you can be surrounded by people pleased to see you and perfectly happy to entertain you with their silliness. Last night was more like the latter. I was surrounded by people that were already drunk by the time we got there and enjoying the feeling. They took turns telling stories and trying to outdo each other. Then, one very enterprising lad offered to show me his newest peircing in a very...tender part of his anatomy. I very politely said "No, thanks." but he proceeded to show his "assets" to the room. I stood there, tried not to look, and laughed so hard I thought I would pee my pants. He took no offense, thankfully, and put it away. I liked the guy, but wow, the things people will tell you when intoxicated! About eight of us stood in some guy's garage talking and listening to music until almost 5AM. It was fun and I was pleased to be invited. The bad thing is, when we finally made it back to my friend Sarah's house we somehow didn't set the alarm very well and managed to sleep through the Mardi Gras parade this morning. I was so mad when I finally woke up, I had been looking forward to it for weeks. Oh, well, there's still the Fat Tuesday parade on tuesday night. Good night all, I need my bed. 2月17日 dreaming of...
There has been a lot of talk about dreams in my social circle lately. I find it interesting how much we can be affected by an instance of fiction created by our own brains that seems to follow us into our waking hours. I don't always remember dreams, usually there are only residual images or vague feelings that stay with me once morning has taken hold. The last few days, my dreams have been very vivid, what my friend Sarah calls "sweet, sweet lovin' dreams". Mine have been sort of pg-13 this time, though. The embarrassing part is that the stars in these dreams have been celebrities, which I'm sure isn't unusual for most people, but is for me. If I have dreams about famous people, they are musicians, like I'm fulfilling a desire to live that life without actually going through the fame part, which I would NOT handle well. These have been about an actor, though, and one significantly younger than I. (not illegal younger, let's not be icky people) I don't know. I'm perfectly happy being single, though I feel all this pressure as a girl to hurry things along. I know I won't live forever, but some days it seems that way. I just don't want to settle. I was saved from doing that once, and I'm trying to be careful not to fall into a relationship that isn't right for me. I keep thinking that when I do eventually get there, I'll know, but not everyone does, I just have to be lucky and persistant. lol How hard could that be? 2月14日 requires assemblyI love those words. I love following directions and putting something together. I needed a place to house my laptop besides on my bed and a place to house make-up and things that don't fit in my tiny bathroom. One day at Target I saw these white laminate cubes that you could mix and match into a unit for your living room or whatever and I thought, hmm. So I took out my tape measure and measured how far the end of my bed was from the wall and how long the wall was. I didn't have room for a desk but maybe I could rig something up. (I have more tools than just about any girl I know, and a lot of guys too. My dad is very do-it-yourself and my mom has her own tools that my dad is not allowed to touch.) So, with a 8 foot long white laminated fiberboard from Lowe's and three of the 2cube units, I now have a desk that runs almost the entire length of one wall. I now have a place for my computer to live and I can actually use my mouse. Plus, it's long enough to sit down and put on make-up so that I don't hurt myself trying to do it in my bathroom. (I have to get really close to a mirror, I've been wearing glasses since I was ten and I'm pretty blind.) I had to put together the cube units and I've already mentioned that I love putting things together, so that was fun. And, the whole shabang only cast about 60 bucks, bonus! Not the most beautiful piece of furniture I own, but it's not bare boards and cinder blocks, so I'm happy. 2月13日 I don't think I've ever had a Mai Tai, but ok***You Are a Mai Tai***
You aren't a big drinker, but you'll drink if the atmosphere is festive. And when you're drunk, watch out! You're easily carried away. |
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